The Chris Gonyea Project

Well it has been one week since…that truly awful day…when my cousin Jen…

It is odd how grief works. I will be going along, joking around or having fun, and then that little sliver of a memory will be somehow be remembered and instantly I am saddened again.

Whenever one of those memories pops into my head, I can’t seem to do anything but feel empty. Wondering what the heck I could have done to stop this awful event from happening, to roll back the clock and to give her a second chance. I am sure any friend or relative feels this way. You think that one phone call or e-mail could have changed her mind, if only for another day or two. Anything to have her for another day or two. Just a little more time to fix things up. Maybe it would have made a difference, maybe not.

But I then remember she is looking down over us know, I know it. Happy once again. And that makes me feel better. She has a purpose up there and I know she is doing one heck of a job.

But I still miss her.

Last night was the toughest I have ever experienced.

The past few days have been really rough with my cousin tragically passing away. Being her cousin as well as a classmate of mine in high school, naturally we would have many of the same friends, especially in a class of 39 people (yes, that is no typo). So it has been my duty to get ahold of all the old friends and inform them of what happened.

The messages I have been getting from everyone have been absolutely wonderful and comforting. It looks like many will come to the wake tomorrow. It will be good to see everyone…that is what friends are for.

I hope I never have to go through this again. It is awful having to summon the courage to inform someone that a friend or relative has passed away. It is even worse to see those same people as sad as I am right now.

It is one thing if someone’s time has come. Her’s hadn’t.

I lost one of my cousins today. We went to high school together and were really close. I don’t know why she decided to leave us, but I hope she is in a better place. She deserves it. I just wish it wasn’t so soon.

R.I.P.

Hug someone you love tonight. You never know when they will be gone.

Yep. I bought one today. A Playstation 3.

Absolutely love it as a game system. Not to mention, it works very well as  DVD and Blu-Ray player.

Watch Apple release a game system tomorrow or the Apple TV I have always wanted.